Thank you for sharing your experience. As an introvert, much of this resonates, and some of it is the inverse; for example, I often think: "If I *do* talk, what if no one wants to listen? Would you still love me if I *don't* shut the fuck up?" When I went on my 2-month solo road trip—much of it in the middle of nowhere—I also asked myself what you're asking, "what if I didn’t try to connect w everyone? Who would I be then?" and "Do I even exist if I'm a recluse?"
I thought this "crop rotation" metaphor might be helpful in identifying which connections to focus on anytime and especially while you're in a reclusive period. "If you’re feeling depleted and exhausted right now, maybe you just need to let your soil rest." https://weshouldgettogether.com/blog/instead-of-pruning-friends-try-this
Thank you for sharing your experience. As an introvert, much of this resonates, and some of it is the inverse; for example, I often think: "If I *do* talk, what if no one wants to listen? Would you still love me if I *don't* shut the fuck up?" When I went on my 2-month solo road trip—much of it in the middle of nowhere—I also asked myself what you're asking, "what if I didn’t try to connect w everyone? Who would I be then?" and "Do I even exist if I'm a recluse?"
I thought this "crop rotation" metaphor might be helpful in identifying which connections to focus on anytime and especially while you're in a reclusive period. "If you’re feeling depleted and exhausted right now, maybe you just need to let your soil rest." https://weshouldgettogether.com/blog/instead-of-pruning-friends-try-this